Ready to leave.

Wow what a Christmas break.

Alex comes home from Miami tonight. thank god. I need a reason to get out of this house. I'm not trying to be mean but there is only so much of my family i can take. I'm miserable here. I feel like i don't fit in... not that i have ever felt like i did.

I've always kinda been the outcast in my family.. the odd one, who doesn't share any interest with the others and always seems to bump heads with someone.

and well since it's Christmas break, and I've been home for a while.. it's been exceptionally bad.

Now i remember why i don't bother to stay here on the weekends when i do come home to see Alex.

I feel like I'm all alone here and I feel like every gangs up on me. I hate it.

I have spent pretty much the whole day crying, and now I've got this mess of a headache that wont go away.

I should have expected it, this is how it always was when i lived here.

Note to self: don't come home for Christmas break next year. come for Christmas day.. then get out!

Well Alex just text me, he's home! thank god. tomorrow i can out of this house and go spend some time with him and relax and be happy.

&& oh yeah. I talked to Gary yesterday! his phone is messed up. myspace is the only way to get in touch with him right now. whew. at least i know i didn't do anything to make him mad. but we are def. going to hang out soon! && I cant wait.

So I've been thinking about jobs for next semester. and i think I've come to my conclusion. I'm going to work at hooters on Thursday nights.. since i don't have any Friday classes.. make my tips for the week and be done. I could make more in one night there than i could a whole week at bath and body works. so def. i think that's a good idea.

I'm so ready to be back in Charlotte. I'm much happier there.

but OK anyways.. i guess that's enough for tonight. peace.