First Blog

Ok. soooo, I have deciding to start blogging again. I use to blog all the time until myspace became my BFF. So here I am again.. blogging... where to start? Maybe, why I'm blogging again? I have had very bad anxiety here lately, I mean BAD. I thought maybe blogging would help me get things out instead of just keeping them in my head.. so in conclusion my anxiety might get better. maybe. So to kinda jump into things.. today was an alright day.. Me and Alex [the guy I've been talking to, AKA my Colombian] actually talked a lot today.. which usually never happens.. we don't usually talk during the week that much, until I see him on the weekends. So that was good.. and we actually TALKED about a lot of stuff... and usually we don't always have that much to say.. so I felt like things were good between us today.. I still don't understand why we can't have a label yet.. 7 months we've been together. with no label. I guess it's not that bad.. but I kinda wish it would happen.. but in the mean time I am enjoying myself. I've got my other 'boys' who help keep me busy.. But I'm a little worried about Gary 'my other latino boy'.. We haven't been talking a lot here lately and I don't know why. We usually talk everyday and we usually hang out.. but I've hardly heard from him and I haven't seen him in 2 weeks. I'm kinda bummed. I don't know what's going on. I stopped texting him.. cause I felt like maybe I was getting on his nerves.. maybe I should post this on myspace..so he can read it. ha ha. I wish I knew what was up.. it's not like him to be soo.....shady if you will.. but oh well. I guess theres not much I can do about that.. But on the other hand, I've had someone pop back into my life, Randy, 'AKA my Asian' .. I actually went and hung out with him tonight.. at hooters, my favorite place to be.. It was fun, I've missed him a lot. So I'm glad we've started talking again.. but every time we start talking or hanging out again his crazy ex girlfriend always finds out and blows up my phone.. it drives me crazy.. why do guys always have to come with so much baggage? Just like Ale has a crazy ex, with whom he still talks to.. but we wont even go there.. wow no wonder my anxiety is so bad... I've got a lot going on huh? Well I think we will stop this here for tonight.. It's well past my bed time. =]