Why do things always have to be so gosh darn complicated. And why do my emotions always have to be up and down...instead of stable. I know I'm complaining.. but I'm in one of 'my moods' at the moment. I didn't get as much accomplished as I would have liked today. I've been trying to get my schedule done for next semester..and I'm way behind.. Lets just say I fucked myself over. oh well. I did manage to get into one more class..so now I have 3.
I'm kinda upset that I still haven't heard from Gary. I have decided I'm not going to text him.. I'm going to let him text me. Which isn't working out so well.. it's been two days since I've talked to him. It's killing me. I just keep wondering what is going on, it's just not like him to be like this. I don't know what to do about this situation?!
I also managed to burn myself while fixing fries and chicken nuggets tonight...which by the way I didn't even eat. I guess I just waited to long to eat.. and I didn't really want chicken nuggets either.. but it's all I have left.. and I dont plan on buying anything else..due to the fact I only have 3 dollars to my name.... and my mom has decided to pretty much cut me off. bummer.. now what? I starve to my death? I don't know why she is the way she is.. I dont ask that much of here.. just 100 dollars every 2 weeks to buy food with and other various iteams that I might need...since I don't have a job.... and she can't even do that.... she'd rather spend her money on herself...and that's not right when you have KIDS..in COLLEGE... oh well.
So for the rest of the week...it's cereal bars, fruit punch, chicken nuggets and fries. how lame.
I did get to talk to Randy today though.. which made me feel a little better. He always makes a point to tell me I sound beautiful everyday that he talks to me. corny but cute.. He is the one unconstant constant thing I have in my life. If that makes any sense to you? He always seems to pop in and out of my life randomly, but we always seem to remain very close. If he wasn't such a 'guy' I might consider dating him if things didn't work out with Alex. But I honestly think I would have trust issues with him..
I feel like I have so much to do... I need to study... I need to clean my room.. and so much more... but all I wanna do is sleep, sleep, sleep! I need an attitude adjustment.. and shit my finger is still hurting from where I burnt it cooking....
Well I guess I need to go study for a little bit...or maybe just go to bed.. either way i'm peacing out!
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